My Follow -up Appointment

My follow up appointment was pretty uneventful, which is good!  Dr. Jayakumar felt the bone in my nose, asked if the congestion went away (it did, thank God!), and told me everything looked good.  He asked if I liked the way it looks (I do!), Still amazingly happy with the result. Dr. Jayakumar said that the nose will reduce even further in size over the next six months. He took my picture again, and has asked me to call for one more appointment at the 1-year mark.  Before I left though, we went through some of the pictures on his laptop... His cases, both reconstructive and cosmetic, pictures before and after. It was slightly horrifying, yet interesting.  And my pictures, I can't remember the exact measurement, but I remember Dr. Jayakumar saying, "You had a pretty big bulbous nose" as he scrolled to the next picture. Should I call and ask them to email it to me?  i think yeah, i need them not because they are my pre and post operation pictures but just because they have many stories buried inside them which i endured this whole life....

Post TWO months after Rhnioplasty

I haven’t really updated my blog much because the healing has basically slowed down until today! I am so swollen still. From the profile, it looks fine, although I do think it still supposed to drop a bit within the next month. Also, the space between my eyes is still really wide and sensitive to the touch, especially towards the eyes. I guess not so much in the middle. My tip is quite stiff. Making certain facial expressions hurts, too! I hate how swollen my nose still is and with the weather getting warmer, it’s not really helping. My nose is still heavy sometimes and sometimes not, heavily congested sometimes and sometimes not. Sometimes running so heavily sometimes not, I think it’s just because this warmest weather. When I go out I still keep sneezing a lot and I can’t completely avoid being under the sun so I feel like nature is working against me. The inside of my nose burned pretty badly because of clotted mucous. This also cause for me to attempt cleaning out my nose by. I read online to wait at least 10 weeks, but uhh, I’m just not that patient lol. I was gentle, though so I doubt I caused any damage. I’ve had soooo much dried mucous in there! I couldn't take it anymore.  When I tried to take that out one thread kinda skin also came out with that and which hurts pretty badly. Thread skin started irritating me quite badly so I called my surgeon, Dr. Oommen for help. I’m also approaching my presentation day and its last few days of work. So I don’t think that my stress is helping much!  Dr. Oommen helped me to remove that and he told it’s just a stitch of the heart shape thing which inserted in the roof of my nose to retain the shape of nose. My nostrils are pretty different now that I look at them. I guess that’s how God made me! But I also think that the right side of my nose is just more swollen that the left.

So we are at the end of April, which means it’s marking my second month anniversary since surgery. My  follow up appointment is fixed on the coming Tuesday. I really wish to consult my surgeon since that stitch started hurting me. But after Dr. Oommen took that off, I relieved a bit, but its remaining part turned sharp and started irritating and hitting me sooo badly. I ‘ve decided to kick that out when I meet Dr. Jayakumar at follow up appointment but honestly, very honesty it…. DISAPPEARED one day morning. How I DON’T know. It feels good without that but still I miss that, and getting curious how it went away with my intervention.

Things aren’t exactly “perfect” yet, but I’m so much happier with my new nose than my God given one. I feel so much prettier and more confident and I feel like my new nose  has made all of my other facial features look so much better, too. I don’t care if someone judges me based on my decision to alter my face because it is my right to choose what I want to look like and I have my families full support to have future revisions, so other people’s opinions don’t really matter. I know who I am and I know I made the right decision. But what does bother me is when others say that  you have wasted this much money for a complicated surgery and followed up a brutal recovery now all went in vain. You don’t look changed. You are look exactly like before. How do you know why I choose to do that? Because I’m so confident about my doctors and my surgery. That sounds more like arrogance to me. It’s a preference and if you feel secure and confident in your decision and you will like what you see in the mirror more, and then do it. Don’t let others negativity and jealousy make you change your mind