I haven’t really updated my blog much because the
healing has basically slowed down until today! I am so swollen still. From the
profile, it looks fine, although I do think it still supposed to drop a bit
within the next month. Also, the space between my eyes is still really wide and
sensitive to the touch, especially towards the eyes. I guess not so much in the
middle. My tip is quite stiff. Making certain facial expressions hurts, too! I
hate how swollen my nose still is and with the weather getting warmer, it’s not
really helping. My nose is still heavy sometimes and sometimes not, heavily congested sometimes and sometimes not. Sometimes running so heavily sometimes not, I think it’s just because this
warmest weather. When I go out I still keep sneezing a lot and I can’t
completely avoid being under the sun so I feel like nature is working against
me. The inside of my nose burned pretty badly because of clotted mucous. This
also cause for me to attempt cleaning out my nose by. I read online to wait at
least 10 weeks, but uhh, I’m just not that patient lol. I was gentle, though so
I doubt I caused any damage. I’ve had soooo much dried mucous in there! I couldn't take it anymore. When I tried
to take that out one thread kinda skin also came out with that and which hurts
pretty badly. Thread skin started irritating me quite badly so I called my
surgeon, Dr. Oommen for help. I’m also approaching my presentation day and its last few days of work. So I don’t think that my stress is helping much! Dr. Oommen helped me to remove that and he
told it’s just a stitch of the heart shape thing which inserted in the roof of
my nose to retain the shape of nose. My nostrils are pretty different now that
I look at them. I guess that’s how God made me! But I also think that the right
side of my nose is just more swollen that the left.
So we are at the end of April, which means it’s marking my
second month anniversary since surgery. My follow up appointment is fixed on the coming Tuesday.
I really wish to consult my surgeon since that stitch started hurting me. But after
Dr. Oommen took that off, I relieved a bit, but its remaining part turned sharp
and started irritating and hitting me sooo badly. I ‘ve decided to kick that
out when I meet Dr. Jayakumar at follow up appointment but honestly, very
honesty it…. DISAPPEARED one day morning. How I DON’T know. It feels good
without that but still I miss that, and getting curious how it went away with
my intervention.
Things aren’t exactly “perfect” yet, but I’m so much happier
with my new nose than my God given one. I feel so much prettier and more
confident and I feel like my new nose has
made all of my other facial features look so much better, too. I don’t care if
someone judges me based on my decision to alter my face because it is my right
to choose what I want to look like and I have my families full support to have
future revisions, so other people’s opinions don’t really matter. I know who I
am and I know I made the right decision. But what does bother me is when others
say that you have wasted this much money
for a complicated surgery and followed up a brutal recovery now all went in
vain. You don’t look changed. You are look exactly like before. How do you know
why I choose to do that? Because I’m so confident about my doctors and my
surgery. That sounds more like arrogance to me. It’s a preference and if you
feel secure and confident in your decision and you will like what you see in
the mirror more, and then do it. Don’t let others negativity and jealousy make
you change your mind
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