Less than One week to go..

Today I called the surgeon's office for my nose job, and scheduled the surgery.  After I got home, I secured the other things, so now I'm all set to have the rhinoplasty operation on February 27th. I’m starting to get bit nervous now.  Obviously, this whole surgery phenomenon is NOT something new to me but still something blocking my positive thoughts. May be its just because I didn’t know this doctor fully, I mean personally or officially apart from those results I found on net. He’s still a stranger to me. I don’t know whether I’m comfortable with him or not. He is always soft to me but my orthognathic surgeons were friendlier since I know them from past 3 years. I feel comfortable in their hands but this case is little different I guess. The doctor-patient relation is very low no almost zero here. Plus he’s also not sure about the result he could give because of this thick skin. I wish to get a visible change otherwise all my efforts to get a nice nose will go waste.  Now I’m having second thoughts too.  This surgery, is that necessary for me? My nose is very big one and each time when I see myself on mirror I feel it like an elephant. I have received many negative comments on that from childhood but still, if the doctor failed to give a major change then? Why I agreed to pay this much money if you can't even tell I had anything done.  Then I looked up before and after pictures, and I could see what he meant.  When you look at a person, you see their face as a whole, not their nose or any individual feature.  If you didn't know someone got a nose job, you might think that he or she looks different, but not know what has changed.  You only notice the difference if you know to look specifically at their nose, if that makes sense. I'm going to mention it to him when I talk to him pre-op.  Like I said, I'm just really nervous I'm going to be paying all this money and going through this brutal recovery and I won't be satisfied with the results. I also have fears that I will just hate the final product completely, and I won't be able to get my old nose back.  The rational part of me knows that is extremely unlikely, considering I chose a good surgeon with plenty of experience.

I called some people who is very close to me and told them about rhinoplasty.  I’m not going describe this to all, If anyone notices any differences and asks, I'll say I had a sinus surgery.  I just think this decision is a personal one, and I do not have to justify it to all.  And above, so far the few people I've told have all tried to convince me not to do it.  I really hate that. "Don't change the way God made you!!!!"  huff.  If that's your reasoning, does getting a nose job make me any worse than people who get braces or wax their hair? I'm doing this for me, and I'm happy about my decision.  Hopefully this post gives everyone else a little insight.